I am so out of here!!!

I am officially moving out of my house. I told my father that i will be moved out by July. and i have full intention of getting the fuck out of this house.

Oh right random fact about me, almost forgot um lets see... Oh i got it! I am totally addicted to Pepsi. like it is beyond an addiction. i need this stuff or else i become an evil demoness.you don't want to fuck with me when i have no Pepsi in my system O.O.....like you have been warned.

so yeah back to the first statement of my blog. i am moving the fuck out of my house in july. i want out and that is that. My sister has exactly that time to get a job otherwise her and dad will have to move too. or so my father claims i don't think they will. he can get food stamps with her and what not. he just is useing that to try and keep me in the same house. it's not gonna work.

no i am not planning on getting a roommate. to be honest i am just not roommate material. i like my space and i don't like to share my space. but if i were in a relationship with someone that might change. that kind of roommate i could handle. and honestly i would have no problem like getting a place with a boyfriend or a girlfriend. but any other kind of roommate would be bad for me. i am thinking of this one place that isn't to far from my dad's place. just cause i know dad will want me to come over and visit as much as possible. just cause i know that is how my dad is.

but i can not wait. i want so badly to have my own place and be on my own. i need it so badly. but of course i am waiting until after spring term. like heck i am gonna look for a place to stay while i am attempting to attend school. not happening dog, not happening.

so yeah those are my updates, i can't wait to be out on my own. and it is gonna happen for sure! I am possitive!!

Pet a Tena and she shall Purr

It's true, pet me by like playing with my hair or rubbing my back, heck even tickling or scratching my back, and i practically turn into a purring kitty XD

so i like the idea of starting each blog with some strange fact about me XD I'm totally digging this idea. anyways lets cont with my latest new. ^//^

So i suffer form a mild case of depression. I know this is a fact and i know this because i saw my mother suffered from depression for years. so when i have symptoms i can tell. Lately i have had a really rough case of it. It got to the point where i didn't even want to leave my house. i didn't want to move i didn't want to eat, sleep, or even do anything. i didn't even want to rp i was so depressed.

So when i get depressed i get very cuddly because i need that feeling of human interaction otherwise i lose my mind. So i have been a little clingy but i haven't really had anyone to cuddle with. Honestly the best cure for my depression is a late night watching movies, cuddling and talking. this will cure me instantly. so I have spoken of the one i call My Lesbian. I call her that because i refer to all my friends as Mine. and the one thing that makes her solely unique is that she is the only pure lesbian chick i know and the first chick i ever wanted to date. she is so cute >///<

so my dad got me the movie burlesque because i love Christina Agulaiura and Cher. And i love this fricken movie. well My lesbian hadn't seen it yet so i invited her over to come watch it with me. My friends and i joked about me getting some action and stuff like that but honestly, i just wanted to have at least sometime with her so i can get to know her better. because when we're at work depending on who we are working with. we never have time to talk. so honestly although i was joking with my friends about her and stuff i really just wanted to spend time with her. so we watch burlesque and the movie ends. and honestly i didn't want her to leave. so i offered to watch another movie. she hadn't seen To Wong foo thanks for everything Julie Newmar which is one of my favorite movies. so we watch the movie and spent a couple hours just talking which was so nice! just having someone new to have a conversation with and get to know. so around like 4 o'clock i still don't want her to leave and we are still talking so i put in I Love You Man (( great movie!!!!)) and we end up just cuddling and relaxing. we ended up staying up all night and finally around 5:30 i turned the t.v off and we just cuddled and went to sleep. Honestly i have never felt so relaxed then last night when i was hanging with her. i was just so comfortable it was wonderful

so yeah those are my life updates. School is finally over but i still have a couple papers i have to write for my Poetry class. have i ever told you i hate poetry. I don't get it...and i suck at it....anyways!
 Peace, Love, Joy to the World, all that Jazz and have a good night folks XD

Black Nails are sexy

I find black nail's absolutely sexy. but that has nothing to do with my blog for the day. I just wanted to allow you a moment of my thoughts.

anyways more updates! yay! Lets see what has been going on in my life since my last post. Well i no longer have a cold. i was over that in a matter of days and i feel all better and rejuvenated. i did make a mistake while i was sick. although i had an absolute blast i shouldn't have walked home in the rain ><

Basically where i live we have this thing called first Friday art night. it's the first Friday of every month and basically the shops down town and it's a night with a bunch of annoying teenager walk around and hang out down town. while in high school i did find it fun as an adult i get annoyed with the annoying teenagers who just act all stupid and shit. But anyways My red neck Ninja had been asked by this chick to go to the new club that had just opened up down town. she didn't know this was a date XD so she invited me cause i wanted to go dancing. I knew that we needed to bring my crystal because come on! it's not a party unless my crystal is there!
 so we made it a girls night. we went out to dinner, walked for a bit and then went to the club.
 i had so much fricken fun! I danced for a bit, got to hang out and relax, danced a bit more. hung out with crystal and a guy i am now going to call Hands. yes..Hands is his name and that is what he will be refereed to in my blogs.  anyways he is named that for a reason, and crystal and i know why. man he his talented...and no it's not that dirty you perverts! he is really good at shoulder massages.
so we have a great time Friday night just hanging out. so now we've made every first Friday is our girls night XD yay girls night!

so yeah after that night i spent the next day in bed getting better, and all of Sunday getting better so then i was able to go back to school on monday. i was happy ^^ yay school.  now that last weekend. Sunday was also the day that i got my Pokemon game! I love my Pokemon game! so fricken much!!!  anyways i got black and i got white for my crystal. i love the game and i hope she loves it too >< it is a fun game. a bit bothersome but very fun.

well there are my updates for now.  have somethings i need to do. later Peeps!

Hmmm...updates

Ugh >< i'm gonna kill my sister she gave me her cold. which really sucks because i don't have time for a fucking cold >< she is so dead.

anyways update time. MPD turned out to be some random guy who just wanted in my pants and he stopped talking to me once he realized i wasn't gonna let him in my pants. sorry dude but i do care about who gets into those. I'm not some cheap whore you know. But i find it strange in the way things progressed, like the fact that he randomly game me a Pepsi after me never meeting the dude or even noticing him before. and then he ignored me for a good month and then suddenly he is obsessed with me. oddly enough i have my superstitions as to why this suddenly happened. i mean what guy gives a chick a pepsi, ignores her for a month, then tries to get itno her pants and then after fialing once gives up...come on if he was waiting that long i doubt he'd give up so easily.

But yeah so that's what happened with him. besides it's all good since i kinda have my eyes on someone else. the only issue is she is a she. I have a strict no dating girls policy because of all of my leadership roles at my church and honestly dating girls just seems to bother some. but for her i would make an exception. just because she is the kind of person i need in a relationship. but again i don't know if she is into me that way. but ether way i am still gonna try.  I mean after all not like i have much to lose. plus she is always flirting with me.>X3 not to mention she is a total Dom.

anyways that's all my updates for now. i will probably have more later but i am so tired and sick feeling that i think I'm just gonna go lay down now. >< ugh i haven't felt this crappy since last November through December.